it is hot.
i am awake.
i am miserable.
can't sleep.
can't stay awake.
can't stop hating this temperature, this sweat, this hair, this night,
all i want to do is fall asleep and all i can do is think
when does growing up stop?
when do i stop moving?
where are the people who are not leaving?
i hate paying rent, living in a closet, dust everywhere:
spring dust
the last victim's dust.
i hate not knowing where to go
what to be
how to get the air conditioner to blow cold air.
the night is hot --
my body is angry --
my mind is revolting --
hope is weak
tomorrow is distant
i am stuck to the chair
i am dripping with frustration
the earth heaves with thunder
i am so small on nights like these:
searching for the cool side of hot
waiting for something to carry me home.
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